a poem on me, myself

19 years back i was born
not so adorn 
but as i grew i became silent
i donno why ppl called me innocent
some made fun nd made me feel
they uprooted skin nd they did peel
for then i realized it was a disgrace to live
then realized i had a lot to give
i gave smiles happiness and sorrows
thinking everyone returns what one borrows

then understood being true was not worth it
coz my emotions to others meant a piece of shit
i was merely turning myself into ash
i awakened to find panache
to gain it, to feel it, i started living
i got it by singing, recitation nd stage hosting
i tried to unite and bring several smiles
i wanted to file success into piles

but then came a storm
it was abnormally warm
things went wrong
i forgot i was strong
to reclaim myself to reform
to change every laid norm
i froze once in a group discussion
inside i felt some kinda combustion
i forgot the passion i had in my heart
people's fingers pointed as a dart

i got my confidence to learn and inculcate
and remembered there were 10000 things that could make me deviate
i promised to myself i shall stand high
to touch above my head was a beautiful sky
i relive now as an unextinguished fire
now i wont set my own funeral pyre..